literature

What's Normal Anyway?

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I look good.
Damn fine I say.
Did you hear?
Hear the laughter following my confession?
And you wonder why I became so misguided
In my futile effort to be perfect
I lost myself and my reflection
Blind, I did not (would not) see the scars
Results of my self-destruction
Never thought I could be so naïve
But finally I had persuaded myself
To open my eyes and see
For the very first time
That I look good
(On the outside)
For someone who cannot help but take these rollercoaster rides into chaos and madness
To hell and back every time I fall down
For someone drowning on the inside
So tell me:
What is it that I DO resemble?
A shard of glass
A thorn
A splinter in your finger
Come now, ‘friend’
Your laughter rings clear
Enlighten me.
Am I just as broken and confused as I seem
Forever lost in my words (my saviour) of never-ending pain and torment
Misery and of course heartbreak
Of course I am, even now as you stare
Happy now but I’ll find a way…
A way to pull apart the fraying seams of my life (once again)
Make it seem ten thousand times worse than it is
Just because…
Because I can…
(Some sort of talent I never knew I had)
But my mind (and my pen) run away from me sometimes
And no matter how ecstatic I may ever be
I’m drawn to the madness (like a moth to a flame)
The depression (sometimes suicidal thoughts) have begun to infest the very darkest corners of my mind for so long now,
They’re almost normal.
But what is normal anyway?
I know normal isn’t me
Normal is you (laughing at me)
Normal is you (tearing apart my flaws)
Normal is you (pouring salt in my wounds)
Normal is me, but only when I’m crying
And hiding
And bleeding
For you.
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Manuverse's avatar
Whoo! That was a long one. I love it though. The only critic i have is that you should break it up a bit. You dont have to break it up into equal stanza's but break it up into a couple of paragraphs. One big paragraph is hard to take in and sometimes overwealming, even in poetry. Some one gave me this advice for one of my own poems and when i did so it was easier even for me to read.